Still cant forgive myself.

Now i cannot sleep. Photos empty. The engagement, kids day, rayyan, cousins, family, house, fish, frst pic, us, n lots of thing r gone. Cant retrieve it bcoz never back up since buy it. The frst time cnnct to itunes, it should be set as new iphone. But y on earth did i click restore back up. Shit myself. This is the second time in my life this stupid thing happen to me. All my contacts r gone. Now i cnt contact some person bcoz i dont have their number. N most of them is a very important person for my work. Shit man. This is not happening.plz tell me its only a dream. A nightmare or sumthng. I cant face the truth. I am so terribly sad. The engagement cant b repeat. Oh shit. Now i feel guilty to my cousin. How can i face her. The only pic we have n now it is gone. Bravo me. Huhuhu. :'( just this morning i had a look with my photos. Lots of it. N now? I'm being 2 emotional with this thing. I Dont cry when ths happen for the first time. But now i cant stop crying. Like a baby. Dear god. Please help me. Show me the way to orget this. Its stuck in head. Will effect me for few days. :( hm.