So close and yet so far

Where do i begin? In front of me. Inside my heart. But why cant u be mine? Always make me smile. By stupid mistake that u make. Your personality really make me fall for u even more. Your cute face. Your manja sound. Ai. cant stop thinking about u. Everytime u calculate wrongly, and doing something yang memalukan. It's really adorable. But for u, i'm just nothing. Ada x ruang di hati ktk untuk kmk walaupun sedikit? Sikit pun xdakah perasaan ktk kat kmk. Kmk da buat macam-macam pun ktk tetap xjatuh hati. Susah eh macam tok. What should i do? Teach me how? Arrr. I said i luv u. But u wont listen. said i really do. But u just dont care. Should i just give up on my feeling. Should i wait. Or should i do nothing. Let me know. Guide me to your heart. Let me try. I am a different person right now. Trying to improve myself so that u can give me chance to be with u. I cannot say that the stories that u heard about me wasn't true. But at least let me show u the real me. So that u can compare by yourself. So that u can judge me by your own eyes. Not through their stories. I just cant take it anymore. This is so painful. Seeing u in front of my eyes. Almost every day. But i cant do nothing except watching. Hm. Gila udah. Dear god. Plz help me. OMG. Just show my blog to u. damn. This will make me malu seumo hidup. Hope u dont have time to read. Or forgot about this. Y am i so stupid. Kmk tauk mun ktk baca tok ktk akan menjauhkan diri dari kmk. Atau ktk buat-buat bodo xtauk kmk cakap apa atau ktk rasa kmk gila n psycho yg menakutkan. huhu. Bodoh eh keja. Dahla. Balit gik. Aher dah tok. Esok mok gi buney gik. Nite world. Bye.