Lazy day

Boring boring boring boring. Xtauk mok buat apa. Hate myself. Ingat xmok gi kja ritok. P terpaksa juak turun. Huh! Lately tiap kali datang tempat kerja mesti rasa down. Rasa benci lalu mok datang. Ntahlah kenak. P nang mun dapat xmok datanglah kalo boleh. Mok duduk umah jak golek-golek. Dahla malam tadi sakit mata. blur lalu jak pandangan ritok. Just realize that my curse still with me. Y oh y? Y cant i love a person more than 10 days. Y must 10 days. 10 days is all u got. Y cant just u release me. This is really tiring u know. U not with me. But y cant u just let me happy. Suddenly out of the blue u came and ask me the most stupid question of all time. Start calling me and ask the same question. Y is that?Just let me go. Pleaselah. Asking me y i'm disappear n not messaging u is not a proper question to ask when u'r the 1 that missing for so long. What do u think i am. U can come n go whenever u want is it? I thought, no, let me recall back that we're so done for the past i dunno. Almost a year maybe? Or more than a year. U come n go. I dun give shit about that. I dun care if u still want me or not. All i know is i want u to let me go. Bilalah benda tok mok berakhir? Bukan ko peduli aku pun. Lenlah kalo ko nang ari2 msg aku layan aku or apa2 yg seangkatan dgnnya. Tok ko kejap ada kejap xda. P ko expect aku sentiasa ada ngn ko bla ko dtg walaupun ko tauk aku ngn org lain. What is that? I dun understand. Bila aku lari ko halang aku cara halus. Bila aku stay ko buat aku mcm taik. Apa reti gya. Tiap kali aku jatuh hati ngn org lain. Tiap kali yalah ko dtg. Aduh aduh. 10 Hari jak ko bagi aku utk sk org? Biar bn? Lakla sambung gik. gtg.